Between the year 2016-2018 I found myself writing anything and everything. To be more specific, whatever came to my mind I would make something out of it. Back then I was working at a neuro-disability hospital and studying for my degree. Majority of the time my tasks set for that day would be done by late morning. So, I was left with a lot of time on my hands, most of my poetry was written then.
Over time, one day I found myself with a notebook filled with poetry. I didn’t know what to do with it, but I wanted to make something out of it. I gave it sometime as often I can be quite impulsive. Days had gone by and I decided that I wanted to publish my own poetry book. I then began taking the time to research on how to go about self-publishing.
I learned how to write, edit and create a manuscript. I learned how to design my own cover for my book which was very exciting. As it meant I had full control of what my book would look like and the end result. I had all the tools within my grasp, and some skills I learned as I went on which often delayed me at times. Nevertheless, I’ve learned skills that I’ll have forever.
I do feel the process went smoothly considering the obstacles I faced alongside. It was challenging having to learn new skills on hand. Teaching yourself a subject you have no knowledge of and integrating whilst doing so is very difficult.
Even so whilst I was interested in self-publishing and its benefits. I also took into consideration the benefits of having a publisher behind you. During the process of my book, I decided to apply for publications orientated around the sort of author I was. In the end some of the partnerships didn’t align with myself and I would definitely want to keep copyright of my work. My work is personal and much more valuable than materialistic gain. It’s more so spreading the message behind my work than anything else.
Throughout that time, it was a challenging period navigating the publishing industry. As during that time there was a worldwide lockdown and many deals evaporated which I did find unprofessional.
All In total I have 5 books waiting to be published but there’s no rush. 2 of which was published previously but since then I made the decision to remove them of the market as I want to make some changes. These sorts of things I wouldn’t be able to do if I had signed my rights away.
I am in no rush and taking my time to get all my ducks in a row. Many times, in the past, I allowed my eagerness to get the better of me. And it’s always resulted in me having to go back and edit something. I’m tired of it and now I’m taking my time. You can call me a perfectionist I’ll take that. Even if that means you’re dedicated in getting a job done effectively.
Each book has its own back story. Some represent different times throughout my life. Whilst others are just external factors influencing us all.
When you finish writing a book you feel a sense of completion. But there’s always another story to tell or message to get a cross. It’s your perception and your simply sharing it with the world. Some will get it, and some will not. But at least it is your story to tell.
WRITTEN BY JAMIYLA FERGUSON
Instagram:@jamiylayla
FOUNDER/DIRECTOR @POEMSTELLIUM
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